ana consumes me I consume nothing ep 3

Hello everyone.Today was a very quiet day. I decided to write down my new measurements since the've changed a bit. Basically my hips are now 34,64inches, and my thighs are 20,66. So there...Till now I've consumed 490 calories,later I'll exersize too. And sometimes I start to feel a little ok and then something happens and it starts all over again and I feel I don't try enough. I saw this girl on you tube wich explains how difficult and dangerous anorexia is and all I kept thinking was "OMG she is so beautiful and thin, how am I like this??!!"

It would be really nice if I had someone to understand me, someone to talk about it,someone to help me control myself and stay strong

Bye for now...

Good evening! I haven't written for a while but since I didn't make any progress what's the point? I exersize every day, and I started working at a cafe, which includes much walking and going up and down a stair all the time. I suppose I'll gain some money cause at the present time I'm broke, and I'll stop thinking food. The only good thing that happens in my life is my boyfriend. My amazing boyfriend who tries all the time to convince me that I'm thin, that I'm beautiful. He doesn't know how I feel about it... I'm fat, ugly and short.Really how can my legs be so short and fat while my upper body is so skinny? I think someone has taken two pieces from two different girls, stuck them together and HERE I AM!

Ok, enough blablabla. Take care and be strong!Smouts!!!

Angry!!!

I should't be angry though. I'm 99.2 lbs and I should be really happy, but no. I'm angry and scared. They won't let me be thin,they watch me all day. Yesterday night I was doing so well. I ate only half plate of noodles and suddenly my father started screaming at me that this isn't right, and that I can't exersize only and not eat at all,and that eventually I will break and start eating everything and become a fatty. That's great, that's really great dad!!And made me eat 3 pieces of rusk with some kaser. Not a lot of calories but that's not the point. The point is that I started beeing a little proud of myself without great effort (I don't try a lot not eat, I'm just not hunrgy)and they want to ruin it!!I know what I want and no one's gonna stop me.
PS I ate almost one fish for lunch and that's it for today.Kisses beauties!!!!!!

At last some progress...

I'm 101,2 pounds. I lost something AT LAST! I eat one time the day, a small amount of food, and then nothing. And I exersize everyday.Lets see some more progress.Come on!!!!!!!!!!


"Forget about guns and forget ammunition
Cause I’m killing them all on my own little mission
Now I’m not a saint but I’m not a sinner
Now everything's cool as long as I’m gettin thinner"
Lily Allen

I finished my workout and I managed to burn 400cals (could be better,anyway...).So now I'm going out with my lovely boy and I'm really concerned about what am I supposed to drink in order not to gain calories.I will see... That's it for today, cu tommorrow,smouts...

I NEED INSPIRATION :-(

Hello beauties!! So as the tittle says I really need some inspiration from someone close to me.When I have people around me (especially my boyfriend)who tell me all the time "oh, you are so thin" or "you r fine why don't you eat,I get really angry. Like I don't know when I'm fine, and right now I'm not.I'm fat!!! And I'm obligated to take these contraceptive pills that make me fat even If I don't eat, even If I exersize, my thighs are like two fat bottles.
Today I've consumed 700-750 cals but I'm going to exersize this evening and burn at least 500 of them. Kisses sweeties....

Frastration again!!! :-(

Good morning ghildren! So today I wake up and see that I weight one pound more than yesterday. How can this happen????Damn... I'll try harder today. So far I've had one coffee (40cals), and eaten one boiled egg (80cals),2 slices of turkey (60cals) and one bite of spaggheti because I was cooking and I had to taste it to see if it was ready (it was a small bite so I guess it's about 50cals, i don't know). 230cals so far. I'll try not to pass them for today.Kisses...